totally heartbroken…

so i just read this guy’s blog, the one i’ve been raving about, and it’s not me. all along when he was writing about this girl he liked, i thought it was me, but it’s not. i thought that everything he wrote about this girl fit as me, like a puzzle just missing a couple pieces. but it ended up that i don’t like one of his friends…which means it’s not me. it’s someone else. this totally sucks! i can’t believe i was so stupid as to think that the one nice guy i met would like me. so so stupid. well anyways for all of u who wanted to know…this guy was jordan. it’s no big secret anymore so now everyone can start making fun of me for liking him. so yeah…totally heartbroken.

and then there was two

actually now there’s three. yeah…i again like three guys. two of them i like are in debate. they’re both rly hot and i like one more that the other. i think he might like me back, but i’m not quite sure. the other guy is theo one at school that i’ve been writing about for like the past month.  so idk…guys have kind of ruined my life before and i haven’t had a bf in like 10 months…which i think might be a good thing. so yeah, i think in my next post, i might talk about something besides boys…which as everyone knows would be a rare moments…so make sure to enjoy it if it ever comes…just like some ppl… which i would rather not name at the moment.

soooooo bored

so i’m at debate and i’m supposed to be working but i rly don’t want to so i’m writing another post. there’s like 2 rly hot guys here and i rly want them a lot but i only think that one of them kinda has a little interest in me. i rly want to tell this one guy that i like him too, but yet again, i’m scared that he’ll not like me and that it’ll be rly awkward. so yeah i pretty much have nothing to write about now except for the one guy at school that i always talk about, but you all r pretty tired of hearing about him. so i guess that if u don’t want to hear some more about him just don’t read the rest of this.
so i rly like this guy and i’m not sure if he likes me. as u all know already. well anyway, so i rly want to tell him but i can’t do it. i can’t tell another guy just to let him turn around and slap me in the face(like with a dead fish) yeah it hurts so much. and like all the guys that i liked (and loved) before have hurt me so bad and i just don’t want that to happen again. so i’m a little aprehensive to tell him or anyone for that matter. i told a couple of ppl but i’m just praying that they won’t tell anyone (especially shelby). so i guess there is a chance that i could date him but i don’t know if i would want to if he rly asked me. i guess we could be friends with benifits but i don’t think that would suit my mom. well so yeah, i’m pretty much done talking about him again…for now. got to go…watch music videos so yeah.

so i like the guy

i yet again have decided that i like the guy i was trying not to like. it sucks but shit happens i guess. so yeah. just thought i’d tell u all what’s happening with him…again.

So about this guy #2

again about this guy. so he did something else that i think might mean that he likes me, but i’m not sure if he was talking about me in the thing he said. i’m hoping it is cuase now that i actually let him go, it seems like he’s kinda flirting with me, but i can’t tell if it’s flirting or if it’s just being a friend. i rly want to ask him but i just can’t do that yet. i’ll probably just wait till he gives me an answer in an anonamous way. got to go. trying to forget him…again.

so about this guy

so this guy that i like a lot, well i think i’m going to give up on him. he just doensn’t seem interseted at all which sucks a lot!!! i was hoping he would like understand that he was the one and that he kind of likes me but it’s just not going to work i guess. so i’ll add more later.

special one

so there’s this boy and i really like him but he doesn’t know. he thinks we’re just friends. i want friends but i want benefits with this friend. he’s like practically perfect kinda. like his flaws make him perfect. well anyways, he has no idea and i want to tell him, but i’m pretty sure that he doesn’t want more than a friendship which sucks ping pong balls! well anyways, i know he still likes this other girl so i’m just going to try to let it go for now…maybe.

so life sucks

everything in my life pretty much sucks right now. school and friends and parents and of course the worst is boys. they are aalways ruining my life. i like this one boy who goes to my school, but he likes another girl so it doesn’t really matter anyway. but i get a break from school tomorrow so it’ll be fun.